I can relate

 I'm a bit older than Kirstie. I'm a bit larger than Kirstie. I'm a lot poorer than Kirstie. I have always wanted to be gorgeous. So has Kirstie.

I am a 67 year old woman who wanted to be pretty and sexy and to be able to attract the attention of lovely men. Then I wanted to attract the attention of any man. After a divorce, especially if it is one sided, a huge deficit of self worth seems to set in. At least it did for me. It made me feel like I was worthless. Ugly. Unlovable. Unwanted. I could just feel a big U in red on  my chest.

That was almost 25 years ago. I have a wonderful partner and he thinks I am beautiful. He says so. So why after 25 years is it still so hard to see me that way? I read an article about a woman who had lost 75 pounds and had some surgeries which fixed some problems. But when she looked into the mirror she still felt fat and still saw herself as ugly. Why do we so often fail to change the

thoughts and feelings about ourselves, for a very long time. If Kirstie is like that woman she still sees herself as the bottom picture instead of the top. That makes our war to improve ourselves even more difficult. And I've heard that you should visualize what you want. Boy, that's a hard one. I have a terrible time imagining myself with Miranda Kerr's body. Anyway, I can really understand why many well known women are frustrated with the aging thing and the weight thing. I can't, however, imagine that battle playing itself out in the glare of the flash.