I wish I could turn back time. I wish I could be much more laid back and not so easily intimidated. I wish I could build a wall around my feelings that would protect them. I wish I could have a place to escape to when I need it. I wish I could get my mind to obey when I want it to turn off. I'm 65 now and I find myself still subject to the same fears and bad thoughts that have plagued me till now. At least one thing has improved. I am no longer afraid of being alone.