I know a lot of my problem would be solved if I would quit buying from the internet. But I'm not good at going out and shopping either. And I hate trying on things, except bras. So I have another disconnect. I go into a store, rarely, and I look at the garments on the mannequins and on the hangers and I just can't see them on me. But I still don't try them on. I ordered a couple of tops the other day in a 3X thinking I'd like them to be a little big. They came and were a 3X in some alternative universe. Size wise, they were an extra large at most. I like the fabric so I'm going to try to resell them. The same thing happens in the stores. I pick up a 2X, my size, and it looks like a circus tent. So when I look at another brand 2X it looks like it would fit a 12 year old.
I didn't make New Year's Resolutions. So I'm making a resolution now. I will learn to enjoy trying on clothes. I'll try to overcome the disconnect in my mind and see more of how things might look on me. Not on a skinny 25 year old but on an overweight 67 year old. Me.